Temporary Shadow of the Heart

I have realized that I dont write anything in 2018. Then, it's already 2019. The end of 2019 specifically!

Okay, just a little bit review for 2018.

In the year 2018, I had graduated. Then, I came back to my hometown, Banjarbaru in May. So, I could only say good bye and see you again to Bandung :')

Now, I really miss Bandung so much!!!! :"))

After I was in home, I had tried to find job. But, unfortunately, I had to be jobless almost 8 months!

And the start of 2019, I finally had found a job. Time flies so fast. It's almost a year then.

So, let's continue to the story of 2019.

Briefly, in the end of 2019, especially in my birthday. I have found a new feeling.

The feeling of caring someone for everyday.

But, it's not longer. Just in three weeks, all of it is just a delusion :)

I know that I must not be carried by this thing.

From the start, I'm the one who state we're just friend to my self. So, there's no reason for feeling something up and down about it.

There's no reason to care so much about all of things.

But, my little heart still get carried away. Oh damn it!

I must kill this feeling before it suffocates my self.

Really, now I'm still adapting again to the scene where I'm not around him.

About him..

He was someone that I think I even can't reach him.

We're so different world.

We have so different passion.

But still, in the beginning, I've tried to adapt and understand.

And in the end, I think I'm nobody for him.

Maybe because I'm not in his circle. He has his own passion, his own ambition, and his amazing surrounding.

There's me or not, it's nothing.

Oh this damn thoughts, why am I so attracted to abstract thing such distant people.

I also dont understand why do I feel so comfortable with distance and time apart.

Okay, just let it go such all matters before, and keep moving forward.

LET IT BE JUST TEMPORARY SHADOW OF THE HEART.