Before Close A Book

today is the end of the year..

yeah, it's december 31st 2015.

2015 ya? it’s the second year I have to move on to love other, haha

last august 2014, it was an end of the longest relationship ever in my life, the first and last.

I had to move on from someone who ever I loved the most for more than 4 years. Perhaps you think it’s a sad story. Yeah, I know. Then slowly, it could be alright.

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Not a long time after that, I felt like I had found someone new. I’m glad to know him. We’re separated in the different province of the same island. Our university is well known as big strong rival. Being to know each other from virtual world, until we could meet for the first time in his city. It was a moment when I got a short holiday with my friends, in the end of year, december 2014. I couldnt lie, I was happy. But it didn’t mean that I got a relationship with someone. Coz we’re just friend. I’m the one who started thinking I couldn’t have any relation again. A few months later in 2015, he took some holidays to the city I lived. It was the second chance for us spending time together. We travelled together. I made some food for him also. I think he’s the second man specially I had ever cooked for. ---Who’s the first? It’s so clear to be guessed, yes, my ex----

Once again, I couldnt lie.. evidently, I had fallen for him. After his visit, the happiness was blowing upon the air. I felt like my heart was flowering everyday.

But..

It couldnt take anylonger..

2 months later, in the end of October 2015..

Finally, He just said the truth. He couldnt bear for any long distance relationship. Although, we’re not for being what supposed to be. In the fact, we’re just friend ever. He just said that he didnt want to hurt me and asked me for trying to open my heart for someone else around me. If someone think that I was broken heart, I didnt think so. Because I accepted it, and let it go sincerely.

Coincidently, He told me it when I was doing my big assignment. I was just already so dizzy about my work, haha. I got already depressed, so I didnt think to be sad much.

So, It was a line for the second moving on.

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Normally, it also took a few time to set up for moving on.

I’m not a kind of woman that hard to move on I think. My bestfriends also think such as that, wkwk

and then........ a few months later..

Evidently, one of my bestfriend realizes that I seem falling for someone again.

He is around me. Yeah, finally, I’ve sensed for the surroundings. (selama ini jd orang gak peka bgt, proteksi tinggi utk org sekitar kampus wkwk)

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I dont know why, I’ve just wanted to save these feelings for now. I’m just new for knowing him. Sometimes, it gets me feel like the outsider, because my friends already know him finely since a longer time ago.

and I dont know also, I feel like Allah always sends me someone to cheer me up after get moved. hehe

BEFORE CLOSE A BOOK OF 2015 TO BE A NEW ONE OF 2016.. 

ALHAMDULILLAH, I’VE JUST BEEN HAPPY WITH ALL OF MY LIFE :)